Payday

I hate how I go into all these exams feeling confident, and when I come out it's like I knew nothing.

Gah. I'm so sick of this. All of it.

Sigh.

I just want to relax for once in my life.

And not have to worry about all this stupid crap.

After graduation everything should be better. I'll finally have some time to myself!

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I am Extraordinary, If You'd Ever Get to Know Me

Wow. I have neglected this site for sooooooooo long! I should be ashamed!

So much has changed, its crazy.

Goodness, all I have between me and Rollins is one nine weeks exam, three AP exams, a nerve-wraking graduation ceremony, and three months of summer.

Is it sad that I want the summer to go by fast just so I can go to Rollins? I'm so freaking ready to move out of the house. This place is a loony-bin!

The more I'm away from high school, the less I'm missing it. Funny how that works.

I should be studying...

I hope no one reads this anymore. It's a nice little place for me to spill all my thoughts and not have to worry about how other people are going to react.

Oh, I've made goals for the summer: (1) Get a tan. (2) Exercise (3) Keep a clean room (4) Try to always get up before 11 AM (5) Read all the books I've always wanted to but never had time to (6) Reconnect

And after a 5 month hiatus, thats all I have to write.

2007 Baby!

I can't believe another year has gone by. In 2006 I laughed the hardest I've ever laughed, and I cried the hardest I've ever cried. I think that sums up my year. Mixed.

I really haven't given much thought to my New Years's Resolutions. The old "I'm gonna work out more" resolutions are so cliched. Umm, lets see here:

1) I'm going to try to let go of things, not dwell on the past. Live in the now, that sort of thing.

2) I'm going to be more assertive. I'm not going to bottle things up inside. I'll let my thoughts be known. Okay, yeah, we all know that's not going to happen. But hey, New Year's Resolutions are made to be broken.

3) I'm going to learn how to depend on myself, and only myself. People drift away, its what happens. I'm going to learn how to live with that. This one is going to happen, because it needs to.

4) I'm going to stay true to myslef, no matter what. I'm not going to give in to the peer pressures of college, or high school for that matter.

5) I will continue to ward off senioritis.

6) I'm going to build more self-confidence

7) I'm going to try new things and meet new people.

8) I'm going to keep in touch with my family, no matter where I go. I see many, many daily phone calls in the future.

9) I'm not going to care about other people's opinions, because why should I? They can think what they want about me, because it doesn't matter. People can kiss my butt.

10) I'm going to learn something from every experience. Everything happens for a reason.

Okeedok, so there we go. Bring on the new year! '07 is going to be my time to shine.

Twas the Night Before Xmas...

It's Christmas Eve!!!!!

Yeay!!!!!!

Lordy, I think Christmas Eve is even better than Christmas Day!

Ah, memories.

I hope everyone has as amazing and fantastic a Christmas as I'm sure I'm about to!

*Love*

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And It Breaks My Heart

I had a really interesting dream last night.

And I remember basically every little detail.

It opened my eyes to some things, it made me realize.

After all, aren't dreams your subconcious's way of working things out, or telling you stuff? Something along those lines.

But yes. Enlightening may be going a bit far, but I learned a few things.

And now I have to learn how to react to all that.

This is How a Heart Breaks...